Monday, August 04, 2008
a new term,
a new beginning,
a new life,
a new me.
today was the starting of my new term in school.
level 2.
and i was freaking darn excited and motivated about it.
i'm so aiming the top 5% in school.
why?
cuz i wanna prove to the people around me that i can make it as a top designer.
and i'm motivated.
for the first time, i'm really motivated.
i never believe in my designs cuz i always think that there are others who are better off than me.
really.
a lot of my friends complimented my designs.
but i need criticism rather than compliments.
right now, with the help of a new soul,
i'm motivated.
contented.
and i'm "chiong-ing"
my life started to pick itself back again.
after what happened with annimal.
well, he doesn't wanna "be friends"/contact me anymore.
which saddens me but i've learned the hard way.
the reason being i can't move on with my life
cuz maybe i was too comfortable with him.
and when we both parted, it seems that i've lost someone.
and i wasn't eager to find anyone else.
yes, i shall admit.
i've dated a few guys.
cuz i was really trying.
but i just can't seem to bother what these guys think of me.
at times, i do think about him.
how's his life,
his sisters,
his cousins.
his close friends.
i sincerely do miss them.
but hey, life has to move on.
and i'm not gonna make it as tho the world is ending soon.
seems that both of us are not meant to be.
no matter how hard we tried.
"thanks for the moments and i thank god that i've met someone like you in my life, go on and find someone who suits you and make you happy, i'm sorry i wasn't the one for you"
like i've stated in my entry earlier,
a new term,
a new beginning,
a new life,
a new me.
i'm gonna be much stronger.
and i am.
cuz of YOU.
running free and WILD.
11:27 PM
